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Traveling While Black :: Brazil Is For Everyone!

May 3, 2007

After having traveled a little bit through other countries in SA, I must say that Brazil is a very easy country for a Black girl such as myself to be in. Which is probably why I have run into more Black Americans while here than White Americans (which never fucking happens to me I must say. If I see one I do such a happy dance you would think I never saw melanin in my life). You aren´t hassled as if you are a tourist (therefore rich) and people don´t automatically assume that you are poor and a thief or just the scum of the fucking earth in general. As long as you don´t open your mouth noone assumes that you are anything other than an ordinary Brazilian. So I can walk the streets here and people don´t pay any attention to me. In Argentina women would look at me and clutch their bags tighter after making comments about thieving Brazilians (I do in fact speak a little Spanish and I understand much more than you could imagine tiny Argentinian lady!) and in Chile all conversation would stop as they stared me down the street. Brazil is such a relief after feeling like a leper for the past couple of months.

Having said that, that could be said about any race of people in Brazil just about. There are locals that look like they just got off the plane from Norway, Nigeria, Japan, Mexico, Germany, and every other country that you could imagine, not to mention everyone who falls in that infamous Brazilian “in between” (i.e. mulatto) category. Brazil for everyone! Come have a caipirinha!

I must say this is the easiest country I´ve traveled to so far, and they are pretty used to seeing us as well. I swear if one more doorman asked me if I was working for the students upstairs (that I was in fact living with because I too was a student) I was gonna lose my damn mind. I love Brazil. If only they didn´t speak this weird ass Portuguese I´d move to this wonderland.

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The Myth of the Beautiful Mulatto :: A True Melting Pot Experiment

May 3, 2007

So there is alot of hype surrounding how beautiful Brazilian women are. Almost as if it´s a country full of these beautiful mystical magical temptresses, all with defined legs and abs and just the right amount of lusciousness in the butt and the chest. Seems like its damn near every mans dream to get to Brazil and have a freak fest at some point in his life. Now mind you Brazil is a VERY large country and it´s as different geographically and culturally from one coast to the next as America is. Some regions its hard to find a “White” person, others you won´t find “Blacks” at all. However, having traveled on the Northeastern Side down to Rio in the South, I must say that the myth of the Brazilian woman just isn´t true. But how could it? No country of women could live up to the reputation that Brazilian women have developed. Are there good looking women here? yes. More than anywhere else? Well now that depends on your definition of beauty…..

From what I have been told about 40% of Brazilians identify themselves as mulatto. I´ve been in the country for over a week now and I am still very unclear about what exactly constitutes a mulatto, because its a very different definition than what we consider mixed in the States. For example, someone who would be considered a bona-fide- no-questions-asked Black person in the US, would usually be considered mixed here. For Blacks in the US, if you have an ounce of Black blood in you…. you are Black, no if ands or buts about it regardless of what you call yourself. Though this is changing with each new generation of brown children, as it currently stands at the end of the day you are Black if anyone can find it anywhere in your face, body, or hairline. As far as I can tell, the way it works here is that if you do not look first generation West African yet you aren´t Anglo enough to pass for white than you are mulatto. What is considered White here is also a very foreign concept as well seeing how some who call themselves White, who feel they are light enough to ¨pass¨ would be laughed at and called traders in the States. A funny funny very tricky thing race is. So ever present and real, and yet it is a completely abstract category for identification. It hurts my heart to see so many people people who will do anything to get out of being identified as Black in most places in the world, but in truth we only abandoned this notion in the States rather recently (circa the Black Power Movement).

There are so many people here who are are mixed racially, that categories are very difficult to define. Noone has yet been able to give a definitive answer on what group I would belong to here because so much of it is tied to socioeconomic class as well.

So I´ve decided that all the hype about beautiful Brazilian women is really about this being a country populated with people who fulfill the “O aren´t mixed kids just so cute! It´s like the best of both worlds!” notion. Fucking disgusting. So what makes the women here so special as compared to any others? The “exoticness” that comes when you mix races. One doesn´t even need to come to Brazil to witness this. The Brazilian women that are considered the most beautiful (such as those represented in the media) are not the ones that represent the masses of the country, but rather those who have achieved that “special blend” of mulatto, meaning they have preserved Anglo features while sporting naturally tawny tan skin and curviness that can only be achieved with a bit of Negro in your blood. The Portuguese people came here with the intent of mixing with the indigenous Indians and the African slaves to create their own new race of people to inhabit this land and from looking around I will say that they have just about achieved that. Taking into account all of the skin tone issues that Blacks still deal with in the States it is hard for me to be enchanted by the all of these so-called beautiful people. Frankly, it just makes me sad because it is yet another reminder that what is naturally of African descent/Black is far from ever fulfilling the aesthetic of what is beautiful, not just in the US but all over the world. How depressing.

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Searching For Roots:: Where Does Africa Stop and the Americas Start?

April 30, 2007

So needless to say I got over myself from my bout of international break down. Funny how a good nights sleep, changing to a private hotelesque room, and some good company can change ones perspective. I went on to have an absolutely FANTASTIC week last week.

Last Thursday, the afternoon began with taking a trip to Pelourinho; the historic center of Salvador. It looks like what I imagine Cuba to look like. We saw block after block of brightly colored crumbling, yet charming old buildings and churches. As we stopped for lunch we met a woman (sweaty, swarmy, wierd, lesbianwhokeptlookingatmyfriendlikeshewasdessert) at the cafe who offered to assist us with a translation of the Portuguese menu seeing how she spoke fluent English. Then she invited herself to our table (which I must note for me was initially a little disconcerting as I am particularly suspicious of strangers while traveling) and started going on about one thing or another. That woman and the craziness that occurred as a result of meeting her deserves its own separate post, but not now.

….Anyway, the day consisted mostly of going to the Afro-Brasilia museum and then we went a Folkloric Show in the San Miguel Theatre in Pelourinho. Both of them were pretty phenomenal for plenty of reasons. The museum gave alot of history in terms of the conditions of the slave trade in Salvador with alot of artifacts and art made from some of the first Africans to arrive in Brazil. The folkloric show was a artful depiction of many different sides of Salvador, the candomble (religion for 80% of Salvadorians) ceremony, capoeria, and carnival. It was fantastic!…however it´s pretty much a touristy thing to do. So the next night we went with said mad crazy sweaty lady (o such a long story) to an authentic candomble ceremony where a woman was being initiated into the religion. Between all three of these events, it was hard not to feel as if I was in Africa. Even the candomble ceremony was in Yoruba (large ethno-linguistic group primarily in Nigeria), since 20% of Salvadorians speak Yoruba.

Most of the slaves dropped off in Brazil were from Nigeria and that rings loud and true in Salvador. It´s such a experience having just left Nigeria a few months ago, and then making the voyage to Brazil. In some ways Salvadorians are more African than the Africans. From what I have read and from what I can discern, one of the large differences between slavery here and in the States is that the Africans were allowed to maintain alot more of their culture. So while we grasp for the strands of Africa left in our black roots in the states, in Salvador they don´t need to look for it because it never left.

The crazy mad woman that we met was saying that a large portion of their visitors are African-Americans who are “looking for roots”, which is exactly what I am here for. When you are traveling around and meeting other travelers, the first thing you do is exchange travel itineraries and the reason how and why you are traveling around. When I met white folks and told them that I was going to Salvador they were always like “hmm, but why there”, I just say for historical purposes and leave it at that. When I tell Black folks that I´m going to Brazil (those who know a bit about the slave trade that is), their first response is “So are you going to Salvador?”, to which I reply of course! I came here knowing that I needed to get here, but I didn´t know exactly what I was trying to see. Nevertheless, I am even more satisfied than I anticipated.

Seeing how I was just in Africa, and then Trinidad, and now Brazil its almost as if I have taken my own little transatlantic journey of the slave trade. My professor from college always spoke about the “footprints of Africa left wherever they dropped us off”, and I now see it with my own eyes. As I´ve watched the parties in Lagos, carnival in Trinidad, and candomble and samba in Brazil there are so many parts that have an eerie familiarity. Candomble ceremonies are so strikingly close to many Black churches (particularly Pentecostal) that it was an even more enlightening experience than I expected, and Carnival even with its madness is damn near a spiritual experience itself.

Looking for Roots, but why? I´ve been wondering that to myself as I´ve been traveling lately, why as Black Americas are there so many of us leaving the country (myself included) trying to discover ourselves in another country? What is this obsession with finding a mystical origin? After being in Brazil it makes perfect sense. There are very few other places in the world where slaves were dropped off and their descendants are outnumbered by those that enslaved/oppressed/colonized…other than Brazil. The difference between Brazil and the US is that they were allowed to keep large parts of their culture so their complete identity wasn´t stripped from them. On the islands Blacks remain the majority so they were in the position to create a new identity. As American Blacks, what were we left with after slavery culture wise? Empty space. We weren´t and still aren´t full fledged card carrying American citizens (I don´t give a damn what the law is), more like the slaves who turned uninvited guest who just just wouldn´t take their asses home. So there is this void that makes us “different” but what sort of history do we have to hang that “difference” on? Hip Hop? Martin Luther King? ok back further, Nat Turner? Somehow all of that is not enough to hang our cultural pride, so we struggle to find out cultural Zen.

…so we search for the part that makes us proud, the part that says we belong, the part that validates our existence for being something other than the unwanted stepchild of a major World Power. Sadly, in that search we are rarely satisfied because some things can never be reclaimed.

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My Traveler Fatigue::Backpacker By Creation, Not By Nature

April 26, 2007

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OK , so I left Chile on Saturday and I´ve been on my own since then and let me just say I am going out of my mind on my own. My friend I met in Chile that I convinced to meet me here just arrived a couple of hours ago and I am completely psyched. I have decided this week that I am too damn social to travel alone for months at a time.

Don´t get me wrong, traveling by yourself is quite wonderful for alot reasons but mainly because there is no compromise, ever. You do what you want, when you want, how you want, if you want. There´s no making suggestions and no attempting to find middle ground. You hate parks and walking around but love to shop? DO IT! You love sitting on the beach all day while you watch yourself turn colors and could care less about sight seeing? DO IT!

You make all the decisions, all the time. That is the glory and the horror of traveling alone. There is no one to help figure out where the hell you will stay next, no one to suggest another way for you clean your underwear in the sink, and no one else to eat dinners with. Sure you are constantly meeting other people who are traveling alone, but sometimes a friendship is forced more out of necessity than the fact that you really like them and frankly I´d rather be alone than hang out with people I despise. Most of the time anyway.

To people at home I´ve been “alone” the whole time, though in truth you are never truly “alone” because there are always tons of people to meet. Since you are constantly meeting people you are not technically “alone”, but rather hanging out with virtual strangers all the time. Which is FANTASTIC!! ….at first. However, it gets old not having any roots, and hanging out with virtual strangers all the time can put one on the right on the cusp of loneliness so that when you are truly alone…you are alonealone. I have a theory that it´s easier for men than women to do the single travel thing for a few reasons:

1. They aren´t constantly worried about the safety of numbers. They worry about getting robbed, but they don´t worry about getting snatched, raped, and left for dead the same way women do.

2. They don´t tend to have as close intimate relationships with platonic friends in their “real lives” anyway so meeting new people and having these weird shallow travel friendships isn´t such a change for them.

3. Men tend to be way less picky than women so they can be happier in much shabbier accommodations.

Which brings us to my next point. I´m sick of this traveling/backpacker/budget hotel/Guesthouse shitty accommodations thing. I am ready to now accept that I am just used to certain creature comforts and I go a little nuts without having them. I like showers where you can control the temperature, houses where you can control the temperature, having a place to hang your shit up, unquestionably clean sheets and towels, and not having to carry all of your shower things down the hall in a Ziploc bag. Give me the Hilton! Where is the Crowne Plaza! Point me to the Ritz Carlton! Donde esta La Sofitel? When I travel I want fluffy beds that SMELL CLEAN (I mean damn you could at least fool me), an attached bathroom that gets cleaned everyday, a television with CNN and BBC so that I can know whats going on in the world in English, and a concierge to tell me where the hell to go to get a good meal and what the hell things like “acardeje” are. I need conveniences! I need comfort! I am backpacker by invention, but not by nature.

I´m tired of sleeping on itchiness. I´m tired of every place I stay in smelling like piss and mold. I tired of feeling run down because I´ve been out of allergy medicine for a month and none of the pharmacies seem to know what the hell pseudophedrine is. I´m tired of freezing. I´m tired of sweating. I´m tired of frightening bathroom situations. I am tired of always feeling half clean. I ´m tired of living with strangers. I´m tired of one shitty European after another. Frankly, I´m just tired.

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Salvador Bahia::Ahoy Black Folks!!!….Now This Is Paradise….

April 23, 2007

So I arrived in Salvador Brazil yesterday afternoon safe and sound. Today is my first day up and about and it is simply gorgeous. I am at an internet cafe that faces the beach and I am writing this as I watch one of the most beautiful sunsets I´ve ever seen.

Let me say that it is so good to see Black people again…or what I know to be Black people from an American perspective. Salvador is on the Northeast Coast which is the area where over 5 million slaves were dropped off during the slave trade. We would call people here Black but after a lively conversation with the taxi driver on the way to my Bed and Breakfast it has come to my attention that pretty much everyone here considers themselves ¨mulato¨ regardless of shade. He was telling me all of this after I told him that no I´m not Portuguese, but “Negro Americana” and he laughed and told me that I am not Negro anything down here because Negro here refers to someone who is Negro-Azulita, which I interpreted as what we call “Blue-Black”. On another note, let me also say how lovely it is to see Black men again specifically. I have to say that with all the talk of how lovely Brazillian women are (which I am still waiting to see…more on that later) , no one says anything about how gorgeous the men are. I would almost say that they are some of the most beautiful Black men I’ve ever seen, yet I think part of it is that I haven’t seen any for a few months.

My accommodations are decent though lacking some creature comforts such as the air conditioning is only turned on at night and the bathroom……..well lets not dwell on the negative shall we? A girl can only expect so much for 17$ per night. One thing I can say for the Barra Guesthouse is that the chap Russell who runs the B&B is the friendliest hotel owner I´ve ever run into.

So I don´t speak Portuguese and I have no idea what people are saying most of the time, but I didn´t know what the hell people were saying half the time in Spanish either. They say if you know Spanish you can get along just fine in Portuguese speaking countries, but I beg to differ. It´s true that they do understand you when you speak Spanish to them, but when they speak back to me it sounds like some kind of mixed up combination of Spanish, French, and German and I´m just like who, huh, what? So yea, this should be interesting.

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The 8-Week Fantasy of Fluency:: and Other Reflections of ECELA and the Language Immesion Technique

April 21, 2007

Tonight I board a plane for Brazil (whooohooo!!!!!) for the last leg of this trip. Since they speak Portuguese in Brazil instead of Spanish, today is my last official day of speaking Spanish all day. Everyone I hear from back home keeps asking me how my Spanish is coming and if I am fluent yet. WHEWWW!!!…..that’s funny!The even funnier part of the equation is that somehow in my mind before I got here I thought that I would leave here after 2 months of language school not necessarily fluent…….. but pretty close. O what a fool I was.  At school we all chuckle about our unreasonable expectations before we got here. One hears so much about “language immersion” and how quickly a person learns when they are forced to speak a language all the time. After having participated in this program, I wouldn´t say that this is altogether untrue…….. just very overstated. In the past 2 months I’ve had 200 hours of Spanish class time and spoke at least a little Spanish every day with locals for one reason or another. I definitely know more Spanish now than I would have learned in the States under any circumstances in 2 months. However, the Spanish that I am most “proficient” in is the everyday stuff. I am very good at what I call survival Spanish. I can get anything done in a restaurant, whether it be asking ingredients, asking for condiments, telling the server the wine is corked, and arguing over the bill……… I can get most things done in a taxi, give directions, insist that they are trying to rip me off and that I may speak English but I am no fool, and I can ask questions and answer questions in stores that sell just about anything, pool halls, bars, and Internet cafes. What I know is survival Spanish, but please don´t get it confused…. its broken, grammatically incorrect and sometimes damn near incoherent to locals, but it generally gets the job done.  I have learned to never leave the house without my spanish dictionary and a pen and paper….sometimes drawing is the most effective form of universal communication.  Drawing and playing charades has gotten me very far in foreign countries.

The first three weeks of the program I would be able to speak in class, but on the street I would freeze up because I was so busy thinking about grammar and trying to come up with correct conjugations that I would just get stuck. Then I started noticing that other students who at first sounded pretty fluent to me, really just spoke a very confident broken Spanish that consisted of a jumble of the necessarity verbs and vocabulary. So at that point I just started to speak. Every week I had my favorite Spanish phrases. For awhile, my feeling about EVERYTHING was…… “mas o menos” or “yo tambien”.  Seeing how everyone down here thinks that I am Brazillian because I am clearly not of Anglo roots, I can´t count the number of times I start trying to stammer through some Spanish and they tell me “I don´t speak Portugese” , and I`m like “well actually I don´t speak Portugese either” at this point they look at me very quizically almost as if to say, well you certainly aren´t speaking Spanish…….it seems Spanishish….but not Spanish.  I even had one woman at a Chinese restaurant say to me very loudly and slowly as if I was deft “DOOOO YOUUUU SPEEAKAA IIINGLES?”. Umm yess, as a matter of fact I do.  I´ve never seen anyone look so relieved to speak English in a non-English speaking country.

I had to chuckle to myself when another student was commenting last night how impressed she is with how well I can get us around the city and get things done in Spanish. I know very little Spanish, this I know to be true.   However, I too have become a master a maneuvering what little I do know to get alot done. Outside of class I use about 15 verbs that I can quickly conjugate in several tenses, I have a decent grasp on the difference between para and por (I´ve decided that para is the greatest connector/preposition/explaining word on the face of the planet), and everyday I learn new vocab. Even though last night I graduated from only the first of three levels the program offers, at this point I don´t think that my Spanish would get much better if I stayed in the school another 2 months. By now, we´ve gone over all the tenses, and hundreds of verbs, hundreds of vocabulary and after the first level they start reviewing and going back and fine tuning some things that were breezed over very quickly. So at this point its about getting more comfortable with speaking with people and practice, practice, practice! Which by the way,  honestly doesn´t happen with other students outside of class in a situation like this. The classes at ECELA are fabulous. They can be very intense 4 hour sessions everyday but that’s what you pay for.   It seems a little strange that you are basically paying someone to talk to you for four hours a day, but how else are you supposed to learn?  And it´s pretty necessary since as soon as students leave class we return to English. They encourage all of us not to, but it doesn´t make sense to struggle to try to communicate in Spanish when we all speak English.   It´s just not natural.  Whenever students are together we will speak Spanish for the first few minutes to each other, but we always end up back at English because our Spanish is so bad that we can barely comprehend each other.  I will say that South America is a wonderful place to go to learn Spanish despite the funny accents that separate their Spanish from Spain Spanish.  The people are lovely and they don´t get snotty attitudes that you don´t know their language.  They are so tickled that you try that they are very helpful and get very excited for you when you finally get it right, but the only problem is that as you want to practice your Spanish they want to practice their English.  I´ve had half hour long conversations with people where I am speaking in Spanish and they are speaking in English.  I think I´ve learned more Spanish from taxi drivers than my teachers.  You are stuck in the cab with a talkative cab driver and suddenly you have no choice but to talk and they have no choice but to teach.

My grammar and my accent are shot to hell but that will come with time, my grammar gets better when I read in Spanish and I plan to continue to read books in Spanish when I return home. I am not one of those people who just love other languages for the sake of learning another language, but I am extraordinarily dedicated to learning Spanish.   I  like to communicate with people and if I need to speak another language in order to do it than so be it. So whats the verdict on ECELA and their Latin Immersion Program? I now have a solid foundation upon which to build my language skills. It was worth the money and the time, not just for the language but because its an experience of a lifetime.  I am no where near fluent, but I am proud at how far I have come.  I can now have conversations with people about basic things and we can even talk about world politics and deeper issues…..a little bit anyway.   It has been a fascinating cultural exchange on more levels than I expected because learning a second language with people whom you don´t share the same first language or culture is a pretty interesting experience.  I knew that it would be a time for me to get the flavor of South America, but I didn´t realize that everyday was going to be a crash course in almost every country around the world from all the different students. I have met people here that I would have never met or hung out with under any other circumstances. Even Americans that I befriended during the program were not usually people that I would voluntarily spend time with in the States. It’s amazing the kinds of things that unite you with other people when you are overwhelmed with foreignness (or underwhelmed in Santiago)… “You live within 20 miles of a Dairy Queen? Me too!!” and then suddenly that`s your best friend for the next week.

Travel friendships can be a funny and fragile thing especially as a single traveler. You are in a new place and suddenly everything is unfamiliar and so you look for comrades, compadres, or just an amigo to eat dinner with. You find people who seem the least bit nice, willing, and probably a bit as fragile as you as well and BLAM!!….you have what feels like a instant family in about three days. The new family does everything together…. you eat every meal together, discover the city together, get ripped off together, and trade scary/disgusting/unbelievable travel stories. You offer tidbits and glimpses of your true person and your “real life” but really noone is interested in all that reality, most people leave the country for vacations from reality. It´s weird because as you are developing what feels like a close relationship with these people and you all pledge to keep in touch and come visit one another deep down inside you know that you won`t. You exchange emails because that`s the polite thing to do, but you both know that you don´t have enough in common to keep in contact across oceans and continents. There are always people that you meet that you will forever think about, and some you will even keep in contact with but those are the exception, not the rule. For most, your friendship was as sudden and intense as a one night stand….and forgotten just as quickly.

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Mistaking Me For A Black Jesus:: Confessions of the Absurd….

April 20, 2007

Time after time while traveling in Argentina and Chile I am always not only the Black American, but the only Black face ever, anywhere (no longer the only minority period thanks to two Asians from Texas and one from NYC, gooooo color crew!). Not really a big deal, I’m a professional only. However instead of being surrounded only by American bred Whites, I am surrounded by European Whites….. that presents a whole new set of racial problems that I’ll post about later. Too often in the past couple of months, particularly after lots of wine, beer,  and local liquor has been flowing I find myself cornered by some British/Dutch/German/Swedish/Norway student confessing their racist sins to me as if I have some sort of power to absolve them from their sins. They range from small to the great.

“I’ve always wanted to sleep with a Black man, I’ve heard loads about the size of their cocks” ….with a pair of shiny bright eyes glowing up at me eagerly, what does one reply to that?

“Tell me, is it true was I really born genetically deficit for pleasing a woman?….are Black men really larger, ya know… down there”

………I know we have been hyper sexualized for centuries, but who knew so many fools were still actually obsessed with the size of the Black penis?

Then there are the others………

“I have stood by and done nothing while minorities in the program (umm, that would be me….and umm me) were referred to in, umm, harsh…..and ::racist:: terms …..I’m so sorry”

“I lived in the States for awhile ……..the Blacks are so colorful, even if they are as lazy and violent as everyone says.”

“I could never ever be attracted to an Afro-Caribbean woman, I mean a part of me wouldn’t mind taking one for a test drive ya know what I mean…… I like other races well enough ya know, but I just couldn’t ever be attracted to ya know, that kind of person, THAT kind of look…. but no offense love, your quite lovely” …..uuumm, what?

This doesn’t happen once, or twice but constantly. What the hell do people actually expect me to say to them? Do I wave my magical Black hand over their head, douse them with wine and proclaim that they have been forgiven for all racist/discriminatory thoughts? What exactly are they expecting?

I had a Dutch roommate last week that told me during a conversation that started off on religion in our respective countries and some how turned into her saying “Holland has a serious immigrant problem right now with North African/Middle Eastern particularly Turkish Immigrants and they screw up everything in our country because they are all horrible people”. Umm all of them? Umm did she forget she was sitting in a room with a Black woman? The best part was she kept saying over and over again how she wasn´t a racist and how Hollands problem was that they were the most friendly tolerant unracist people on the face of the planet. “I’m not a racist at all. I don’t have a racist bone in my body” was all she kept saying after I was clearly perturbed. I replied that hers is the kind of fucked up attitude that Blacks/people of color/immigrants fight in the States and its so absurd that anyone would think it was better in Europe (the lie they teach up growing up… just because Josephine Baker found refuge there in the 20s doesn’t make it better in modern comparisons). She then went on to say how she didn’t understand racism in America. I told her that I didn´t know why because what she just said was racist. Who was I to be surprised seeing how, the English, the Dutch, the Spanish went running around the world colonizing and enslaving every person possible while spreading “civilization”. Those fuckers created racism…until the Germans could perfect it. She kept telling me how she knows that she it probably SOUNDS racist to me, but that’s just because I don´t know these people. I told her that it probably doesn´t SOUND racist to her because she thinks that she does know these people.

………..I’m suffering from European overload this week. I usually try to avoid Americans while traveling, because that’s whole point of traveling, to meet people you usually wouldn’t right? But with the nonsense that I’ve put up with, the superior attitude, snotty uninformed anti-American sentiment every single day (plenty of reasons to hate Bush and America, but if you’re going to run your mouth off get your facts straight from hearsay)……… I steer clear of the Euro’s here. If one more person calls me an Afro-Caribbean….as if all of us colored are the same, or puts their hand into my fluffy fro without asking again I’m going to lose my natural black mind. I just can’t take it anymore because unfortunately I do not have the powers of some mystical magical negro and I can´t wash away racist sins or discriminatory thoughts and frankly I´d rather they keep this shit to themselves. Who do I look like, Black Jesus? ….I don´t know, maybe It´s the fro.